Independence Day But I’m Not Feeling Free

I’m praying for freedom. Freedom from all of the burdens and scruples that plague me. I feel tired. I’m tired of having a joyless spiritual life. I’m tired of feeling like I “have to” pray, read the Bible, share the gospel. Surely God does not want this yoke upon me. He spoke of having an easy yoke and a light burden.1 John spoke of His commands not being burdensome.2 How can I break free from these chains? My theology is right. I know that I’m saved and righteous on the basis of faith in Jesus and not my performance. I know that my righteous deeds are as filthy rags. But I also know that I can’t just dump the commandments of God. My obedience is related to my love for him.3 I express my love through obedience. One site mentions there are 684 passages in the New Testament with commands. Another site categorizes 1,050 commands into 69 categories. Wow! I suppose some will say that the only command we are to observe is to “love God and love others,” or perhaps even simpler to “believe in Jesus.” I’m not satisfied with this answer, although I would agree that they are the most important. As is normal, I don’t have a good answer.

Lord, help me to be wise in the way that I read, understand, and interpret the Bible. May you break the chains that bind me. Give me the freedom in Christ to experience joy, peace, and a mind at ease. Free me from scrupulosity. Allow my gratitude for what you’ve done motivate me to want to obey your commands. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

  1. Mt. 11:30 
  2. 1 Jn. 5:3 
  3. Jn. 14:21, Jn. 15:10, 1 Jn. 2:4, 1 Jn. 5:2-3